I know from speaking with many people that financial debt is crippling and often brings a measure of depression. When Katey was unwell, while grateful for state support, I had to redefine my work life to make myself available to Katey as primary carer.
While in broad terms her needs were covered, those things that brought her joy and increased comfort cost money. As such, all we had was invested in ensuring she had as comfortable and enjoyable a journey through her disease as possible.
Just as financial debt weighs upon the human soul, so does debt of any sort. I may feel the fault lies with another, and perhaps logically it does, yet for as long as I hold that attitude, I shall only damage myself.
Media reveals that we live in an age where to criticise and to blame another has become the norm of our daily life. Inability and unwillingness to accept responsibility, maybe because of anticipated consequences, appears sufficient reason to point the finger away from rather than towards myself.
Yet, if Jesus is my total provision, his way was to accept unjust punishment to deal with an outstanding debt no one had the creditworthiness to clear.
It is as I have learned that God is sufficient for me in every way that I have been able to let go of the need to justify myself. I no longer feel the need to prove myself right and someone else wrong.
I no longer keep paper and email trails to establish my own good faith and another’s wrongdoing. Only as I fully embrace the total sufficiency of the cross, that God alone has made total provision for me, that I am able to live in grace and enjoy inner peace and tranquillity that for so many years eluded me.
It’s not in seeking to prove my lack of indebtedness but in ensuring I release others who remain indebted to me that the reality of the presence of God’s radical kingdom is revealed and I am set free while God is glorified.
(Dr Micha Jazz)
With many peaceful blessings